Panic! At the Disco

Plays: Northern Downpour

It's kind of insane that this band exists because it feels like it was made in a lab for me to become obsessed with. And I'm definitely obsessed. Everything about their aesthetic sensibilities, fashion tastes, set designs, album concepts, musical style, and surrealist, overly verbose lyricism fits my tastes perfectly. It also doesn't hurt that they're super cute.
This is completely focused on pre-split panic, not because their later music is bad but because I just don't have much to say about it. And I'm a Ryan fangirl first and foremost :) He's my favorite trainwreck!

What is Panic?

In 2004, Ryan Ross was a loser who'd been kicked out of his dad's house for purposely failing out of college to become a rock star. He spent all day playing guitar with his friend spencer on drums or writing angsty songs to cope with his abusive alcoholic father and cheating girlfriends. At some point he realized he was "terrible at singing", so he recruited a nerdy mormon kid named Brendon Urie to be the voice for his songs. Together the 3 formed Panic, alongside bassist Brent Wilson. He promoted their music by posting photos of his ass on livejournal for emo girls to drool over, and posting his demos in Fall Out Boy fan groups. By some stroke of luck, Pete Wentz, fob bassist, took notice of his fanboy behavior and listened to his songs. Soon after he flew the band out to california to perform for him and, well, they must have done something right, because soon Panic, who had like 3 songs and had never played a concert, was signed to his label.

"wow. big things have been happening. pete from fob heard the band and liked it. wierd that someone in a band i really like is into my music. it feels good." - ryan ross, 2004 (yes, he spelled weird like that)
"in the lab with the scientists in panic. your next favorite band. I promise." - pete wentz, 2005

Nowadays most people know Panic as Brendon's solo project, that's pretty much unrecognizable from Ryan's original creative vision. Over the years members were slowly picked off. Brent was kicked out early on because his drug problem made him unreliable. He was replaced with Jon Walker. Then Ryan and Jon left after prolongued arguments over the band's creative direction, forming a side project called The Yound Veins. This quickly failed (though their (one) album is really good!) preceding Ryan's 2010s downward spiral into drug addiction, alcoholism, and constant harassment from fans and haters alike. Spencer was the last to go because the pressures of touring and exposure to other members' unhealthy habits were interfering with his addiction recovery. As of 2024 Panic has been laid to rest by Brendon after releasing several standard pop albums of disputed quality (i won't give my opinion on those lol). Ryan, after a period of understandable radio silence, comes out of hiding once in a while to perform at small venues with friends from his Panic days, like Z Berg of The Like (who are really good and you should listen to them!!) and Alex Greenwald of Phantom Planet. He claims he's "working on new music", but he's been saying that for 6 years so I'll believe it when I see it.

Silly quotes

"do you still look up to pete wentz?"
"no, i'm taller than him now." - ryan ross, 2006(?)
"what do you think of pete wentz?"
"i don't." - ryan ross, 2010(?)
"if i had an affair with anybody, i'd probably have it with ryan. He's a very good looking guy and he's pretty good looking for a girl too. - pete wentz, ????
"thank god the freakend is over" - ryan ross, 2010
"this is my coming out party. I AM gay. deal with it. done." - ryan ross, 2009
"sorry about that, wish i was gay, cause i hate girls" - ryan ross, 3 minutes later

Even sillier photos


A Fever

You
Can't

Sweat Out

What a wonderful caricature of intimacy..

Plays: Build God, Then We'll Talk

AFYCSO, Panic's first album, is half pop punk glam rock and half vaudevillian circus. I love literally every song on this album!! ryan's edgy but flowery writing gives each one a distinct mood and narrative.
aside from the songs themselves, the visual style of this album is perfect. Ryan perfected his makeup skills during this era, doing elaborate spiral designs across his eyes to boost his confidence on stage. Their costume and set design teams were working overtime to make their live shows fit into the circus aesthetic perfectly. They even hired a crew of performers to tour with them and do tricks in the background.
another key aspect of afycso concerts was brendon's "stage gay", where he and ryan molest eachother in front of thousands of screaming girls. Very high brow stuff.

Favorite Songs

Camisado- a bitter song describing ryan's complicated feelings about his father's alcoholism and emotional/physical abuse. Sadly his dad died from that same addiction while he was away on tour for this album, making him functionally an orphan at 20. He said they reconciled before his passing, but obviously it still hit him pretty hard.
Build God, then we'll talk- leaning into the moody circus theme, it's a black comedy involving lawyers, virgins, and seedy motels. ryan really gets into his pretentious, syrupy and (affectionately) jouvenile attempts at wordplay here. I bet he thought he ate when he was writing this in spencer's basement (he did). Also.. his background vocals in the live in denver version....... i have something to say that's not family friendly.

Cricket & Clover

Plays: Nearly Witches

also called "the cabin album", this was a heavily mythologized but never realized project worked on between afycso and pretty odd. All i can say i'm glad they dropped this aesthetic. (just kidding I love greasy cartoon villain ryan!)
it was a period of creaive limbo for the band, where they reportedly got so experimental that the final products were completely incomprehensible. my understanding is that it was supposed to be a forbidden love story between the titular cricket and clover, but they kinda had no idea what they were doing with that concept. It was described by one of the few people who actually listened to it during its production as "a really weird musical about wolves".
the first track they previewed live was largely hated by fans for both sounding terrible and being too sappy, leading to someone on livejournal calling them "pussywhipped! at the disco". whoever that was i love you.
Even the members of the band seemed to have no confidence in themselves, and yet way too much at the same time... a bunch of egotistical 20 year olds with infinite money, time, and creative freedom expected to follow up with something great after being instantly launched to worldwide stardom with their very first album and presumably being hyped up by everyone around them... its no surprise they got a little lost in the sauce.
sadly the album was never released and we may never hear the recordings from that time. However it's not all bad. one track was leaked, The nearly witches demo version (from before brendon reworked it for Vices and virtues to be a love Song for his wife). It's really good, and I'll always prefer these lyrics over brendon's rewritten version even though i like that one too.
"and as the stars watched me descend, i cracked the family tree and, chopped off all of the branches"
those damn teases ryan and jon constantly hint that they have the demos but "they" wont let them release them.. JUST DO IT YOU DUMB TWINKS!!!

Vices & Virtues

Plays: Always

Vices & Virtues is Panic at the discos's 3rd album and 1st post-split album. While ryan wrote some of the lyrics, the majority of this was created after he and jon left. But despite the fact that i'm a proud ryspawn, this is actually, believe it or not, my favorite panic at the disco album. It's not the most interesting, the most lyrically complex, and it doesn't have the coolest aesthetics or attention to detail. But the songs on here are undeniably catchy and creative and the instrumentation and production is the best it's been for this band. As much as i love afycso, there's a reason i only listen to the live versions (and it's that the production is a fucking abomination. just listen to nails for breakfast to see what i mean.) Nearly Witches, Always, and The Calendar are some of my favorite songs ever and this is the only one of their albums I always listen to all the way through without skipping. I don't dislike any of the songs. The best part is this is their most drama free era, so unlike the rest of their discography, I don't get emo ptsd flashbacks when I listen to it!